Just a quick hello, since it's been a while. I'm better now...I got really sick again during New Year's, but I'm back in action again! Thanks to everyone who sent "get well" wishes.
The date is coming up! I can't believe that in about 3 1/2 months, we'll be married. I'm scared, nervous, excited, worried, everything.
Anthony and I spent the last week or so getting him settled in our condo! He is now officially a bachelor for the next few months, complete with the Aerobed and frozen pizza in the freezer. By my insistence, we bought salad fixins and fruit, which he hasn't touched yet, I don't think. The bananas are browning quite nicely. I moved some of my books over, but other than that, I am dreading having to take apart my room. I am a pack rat, and I have a lot of trouble deciding what can be thrown away. Too much sentimental value. What if People magazines and TV Guides from 1992 become valuable in the next 50 years? What if my brother doesn't need my 5th grade schoolwork anymore? My mom always trained me to keep everything for my brother when he enters the grade in the next year.
It seems like a lot of the planning is already in place; it's just the little details that I'm so worried I'm going to overlook; like just right now, I remembered that I don't have my shoes yet. Or that we don't have Anthony's ring yet. Yikes. Lots to do!
But I can't wait. I can't wait for the rehearsal dinner, and the wedding day, and our honeymoon. I can't believe that we're taking such a big trip within the next couple of months. I can't believe that by my next birthday, I'm going to be married. A couple of days ago, I started doodling and tried to sign my new name. It was wierd.
I am NOT even going to get into how hard it will be for me to have to move out of my house. My biggest worry is that I won't have my "me" space, that time alone I have while Anthony is off doing his thing. We're so used to just going off and doing our thing, but home base for me was always my house. Does that make sense? I think it's going to be hard to know that I won't be able to see my mom, dad, and brother every day. It's going to be hard to not be able to see them at the end of the night before I go to sleep. I can't imagine not being able to give Bennie a good morning hug and kiss before I go to work. I know it sounds wimpy, but keep in mind, I've never really been away from home. I depend on them so much, and I know it will hurt them as much as it hurts me. Oh well, I'm tearing up, so let's change the subject.
I think we might have to miss Coachella again this year. It's the weekend of our wedding, and we could attend Sunday if we really pushed, but it seems too hard. I'm so mad, but there's always next year. Whatever happened to the good ol' days when Coachella was in October?
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Love, Annie
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